Deaf havana were so amazing tonight can’t believe I saw them live and they tweeted me too and sleeping with sirens is booked again so yeh

Always alone at the times when I’m lowest and need someone.

Can’t even type I feel so bad I can’t cope I don’t want to wake up tomorrow morning I don’t want to be here right now I don’t want to do anything I’m throwing my phone around because I’m trying to explain how I feel and I can’t and its so frustrating and I’m trapped and right now I feel so low I just can’t cope I’m not strong enough to deal with this sensibly Im losing self control I just don’t even know what to do or feel I’m so scared and I just wish I hadn’t found it out and I could go back to bring happy and I just feel so alone and iy will get worse when nobody else is awake and I’m ghostly and numb and empty yet still full of pain and sickness. Just want to go back a few hours to when I was happy. I really really need you tonight.